2 wks after i start my temp job and it seems tt 2 yrs hav passed.. i hate to have to get up @ 6.. i hate to squeeze bus.. i hate the waiting time tt i spent waiting for bus which doesnt seems to come.. i hate the uncertain feeling of whether i'm learning.. it seems for 1 moment i tink i am but at another i feel empty again.. i hate myself for being so unsatisfied.. i'm thirsty for knowledge and responsibility.. i wan to do more.. i believe i can.. i need ppl to coach me.. to learn and perform is not diff.. i need the chance.. i hate the kind of contradiction i hav.. hate all the above but still wan to work there.. of cos there are gd things bout it:
i like the feel when my supervisor let mi handle a certain function by myself from the 4th day of my work.. even though i dun feel enuff.. their accounts dept is big such that every1 is handling a specialsed part of the accounts.. i like it when my supervisor dun need me to do filing and to hand all of it to another staff.. i like the ppl there who speak to me politely and tell me patiently even when i make a mistake.. well there are rude and arrogrant ppl there but luckily i dun hav to interact with them..
but still only 2 wks have passed.. i still hav 2 mths and 2 wks to go.. so no hurry.. c how it goes.. ganbate..
